xquizit_ladii

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 21:28:21 GMT

Whats good with yall? same ol same ol this way. been having a rough time with my feelings and it aint got shit to do with Ray. I might sound mean but I'm over him. I was over him for a while...=/ but anyways like i said im having trouble with the feelings. i really dont want to elaborate or nothing right now just updating just to let yall know i'm alive. ima go fuck with my profile now. my offical sad love song is shai - together forever. i keep listening to it and the more i hear it the worst i feel...-sighs- well im out. holla yall ONE

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 20:14:55 GMT

Happy Thanksgiving yall. I'm feeling so good right now. I talked to Malia, Sheed, and Geo. I was mad because my sister was talking to Sheed and accidently closed AOL out and we couldn't get the computer to start for none. Then we had to do system recovery yet again and now my computer is back to the basics. I was hoping he would be on when I got back but today is Thanksgiving so I know that wasn't happening. Well, the family is almost here so I can eat finally. I'll come back in this and update yall. ONE

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 04:35:26 GMT

So, I'm updating this and I wrote like a damn essay so I go to press update accidently kicked the computer cords and the computer shut off. -smdh- I ain't even finna right all that I wrote. Long story short, I'm back but not like that, not with Ray anymore and I'm coo with that. We both realized what we had wasn't real and I knew that but I must've been drugged the fuck up when I typed my last post. I don't even remember typing that but I do know I done changed since that entry and beyond. I emailed him and Sheed back today. My email was full as fuck. I had like 5 emails from Curtis stank ass. Everything has been pretty good with me. I'm back with my moms because she's pregnant and needs all the help she can get. I'm trying to find a job too. I filled out a couple apps here and there but now I really don't know. I hope I get some because I be needing the money. I'm back good with my pops too which is good. Calv and Boo Boo back in Puerto Rico and Jaquan is still in Cleveland with my dad. My lil sister is growing up so fast it's crazy. She still with her lil boyfriend. He be spoiling the shit outta her but she got her head on straight. I be worrying about her and then I remember that she isn't me and she won't make the same mistakes I did. Scool been good for me too. I made good grades. I had 1 or 2 B's and the rest was A's. A lot of boys be tryina run game on me but I ain't on it. I'm down with friends but I ain't down with no boyfriends. Well that's it. I'ma be in this tomorrow or in 2 weeks. Stay up folks...ONE

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 15:01:07 GMT

Well, I didn't go to homecoming last night because ~~Vinny~~ didn't get our tickets. They was sold out. Now if his simple ass would've brought our tickets on the first day they was selling them everything would've been cool. I ain't even know that jackass ain't even buy them. I had brought my dress, made hair and nail appointments, and had to go get my shoes. I was mad as hell because this is my last year, I don't get to do this shit no more. I know fordamnsho I'm going to prom and I ain't going with ~~Vinny's~~ ass either. Something told me to buy the tickets myself but oh well it's done and over with. I wonder if it was fun...

Haven't talked to Sheed so -shrugs- it's whatever. I'm seeing that me and him ain't shit. We can never be friends and stay friends. We always gotta end up not talking because he acted like an ass or I did or we just both stopped coming on. I don't care anymore. I mean I do care but I don't. I care enough to question him if he was all right and if he got my e-mails and if he did why didn't he repsond but not enough to fucking drop tears and ponder why he's not talking to me and why is it that every time me or him disappear and we come back shit ain't like it used to be. I'ma just drop all that shit because apparently niggas don't care that much about me as much as I do them so why must I continue caring and worrying about them? Why must I continue thinking about the what ifs and shit if they ain't doing them same for me. See this is why I hate letting niggas like him into my heart because it takes forever tryna get they asses out...

Raymond... I don't know what the deal is with him. Mike told me he was on one day but I wasn't. I'm still with him as Mike confirmed me of that information lol. See I was wrong about him. I thought me and him was done but we're not. I know for a fact that Ray truly does love and care about me. I really miss him. I mean I miss Sheed too but I really miss Ray because I know where me and him stand and I know what we got is really real. I know I be typing sideways but Ray is my baby and he'll always be it. I know that when I was with him he wasn't fucking with no other girls and he wasn't telling them he still "loved" them. If he was then I'm blind as fuck but as far as I know nigga been faithful. I don't think he could fuck around on me. I mean he does have the power to but he won't do it. He's not that type and that's what I like about him. He ain't no million bitch nigga. I just can't wait until I get a chance to talk to him...

Well, didn't nothing go down during the week so ain't nothing to say. I'm gonna go ahead and close this up. I'll get at yall folks at a later date. Bye LJers...ONE

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 06:39:06 GMT

-sighs- Long time no text. Well, I can only update on weekends since that's the only time I can get to a computer. If you didn't know I stay with my aunt now and she has no type of connection to any internet let alone a damn computer. So on the weekends I come down here to my moms house and get as much computer time in that I can. I'm kind salty because Sheed had e-mailed me while I was in the process of moving on September 14 and I e-mailed him back on October 2 and he hasn't e-mail me back nor has he came on. Maybe he changed his sn but I don't know. I've been asking around but nobody has a clue. Ray also hasn't been on. I'm just shit out of luck when it comes down to them. School is going alright. Our homecoming is on the 16th and I'm going with my friend Vinny just as friends. Nothing more than that. The only reason why I'm going with him is because I know he ain't gonna try none with me and I was tired of all them boys asking me. All them boys up at my school be riding me too damn hard. It's other pretty females in that bitch they need to go harass they asses. I mean everytime I turn around some nigga in my face. I don't like that type of attention. Shit is not cute. Some other fems may like that but I don't. I havent't really talked to anyone on here besides Miss Tina and Brandon. Them fools was talking about Shark Tales. I don't care Finding Nemo is the shit. I ain't seen Shark Tales yet but I will. Man, I miss Sheed for real. I think me and him are finally over. I don't think me and him are gonna talk again. I'm saying both views. I always kinda felt like me and him could get on that relationship level again but now I don't think that's gonna happen. Me and Ray always end up not talking down the line so were over. You know what? I'ma just chill. I'ma just enjoy being single because I can never stay in a relationship long enough. The next nigga I come to be with I'ma have to really, really, really feel him. I ain't none but 17 but ay I've been with enough niggas and I want to really settle down. Not settle down like get married but I wanna be with a boy and have a real true relationship. I want to start out liking him then end up being head over hills in love. I want kids too. If I ever find that boy I will be so happy. But ya know there really ain't no boy out there that's looking for that so I guess I should continue testing the waters. I'm single right now though only because my love for this certain person has not left me. It might be awhile to so I'ma just chill and play cupid for everybody else. I really don't ahve anything to write about. I'm gonna read some of my friends journals and drop comments. As yall can see I'm still alive. I'ma hit this up later on today and Sunday then a I'll hit this up on Friday when I come back and fill yall in on the week. I miss my LJ and AOL peoples. I will return yall be patient...ONE

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 21:29:10 GMT

-siqhs- soo sheed talkinq about leavinq because of some shit i had said. okay not qon front, i was wronq nah sayin but u know he had said the same thanq. but yo i dunno man me and him can never qet riqht. then when me and him almost there somethinq happens. most likely it's my fault and it be dealinq with ray. i mean i still love sheed and its crazy because me and him can stop talkinq then when we talk aqain everythinq is qood. it'll be like we never stopped talkinq. ay i need that boy foreal. even thouqh i'm with ray he ain't nowhere near beinq sheed. can't nobody be him or take his place that he has in my heart and thats some real shit. i miqht have problems with some folks after this but oh well. i say what i feel and this is my journal. soo i mean ima apoloqize cuz man i dunno what ima do without sheed here. i know i was wronq and i really don't think an apoloqy is qoinq to do it but ay ima try. if not, once aqain, my lost ... ONE

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 09:11:42 GMT

ay i really like my journal. i think i did qood on my first blend. beyonce looked really nice in those pics so i had to use em. credit for the scans is for sexalicious.net like i stated in my last entry. well i'm qoinq to sleep. sooo i'ma close my conversations with malia and lunden and hit the bed. my back is killinq me. soo yea bye ... ONE

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 01:55:48 GMT

hmm i really ain't in the mood at all. soo today everybody is jumpinq down my throat. i qot ~~my dad, mom, curtis, rell, nae, niyah,~~ AND ~~sheed~~ all mad at me. yea they all qot slashed because they done pissed me off today. ~~nae~~ and ~~niyah~~, mad at me because they cousin talkinq mad shit bout me and im bout to fiqht her cuz she runninq her mouth and they all like im petty and shit cuz i'm fiqhtinq her. DF?! i'm petty but this bitch talkinq about me like she know me. she don't even know me. she tryna qet at me because she like vinny and he said he wasn't qoinq with her because she was talkinq shit bout me and blah, blah, blah. my ~~mom~~ and ~~dad~~ mad at me because i said i didn't wanna stay with neither one of they asses cuz they pissinq me off. i mean one minute it's like i'm doinq qood with em then the next those fuckers bitchinq at me. for what? NO DAMN REASON. ~~curtis~~ mad at me because he called me earlier and i was like "ay i'm busy riqht now i'ma call you back" and he qone qet mad and say "wdf you doinq that's keepinq you from talkinq to me?" DF?! niqqa i ain't yo qirl. we are not toqether. he needed qet that shit throuqh his head or i'ma be cuttinq his ass off. ~~rell~~ popped an attitude with me cuz he asked me to qo to homecominq with him and i said no because i ain't qoinq and if i do qo i'm qoin with vinny because we had already planned to do so last year. he already qot a qirl and askinq me to homecominq. qet df outta here. ~~sheed~~ popped an attitude with me too over somethinq i feel is stupid. but oh well nah sayinq i aint qonna sweat it. i ain't sweatinq none of that shit. but i know me and him will make up later on toniqht after i'm calmed down and whatnot. as you see i put another layout up. i made that header with psp 8 and i qot the pics from sexalicious.net. this is my first blend. tell me what you think but yo i'm out. i'm still mad about that shit ONE

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 17:55:13 GMT

hello ljers. howz yall? doinq qood my way. well i qot psp 7, 8, and 9. they only the trial versions thouqh soo ima talk my dad into qettinq the licensed versions for all three. but then aqain what's the use we're movinq. nahhh im takinq my damn computer lol. yea my dadz movinq to cleveland =/ but he had been talkinq about that thouqh. soo i will be spendinq weekends in cleveland which means no computer, no ray, no rasheed, no LJ =[. i seen the house its maddddd tiqht. i qot my own room there and everythinq soo when i come. jaquan's the only one who'll be stayinq with him. calvin and boo boo stayinq here. they're qoinq to qet a place toqether. well my other brother carlos is qoinq to be stayinq in either ohio or atlanta. he doesnt know. he said he's ready to leave puerto rico and i'm like whyyyyyyyy lol. i was suppose to qo there this summer but boo boo stank ass had to come here which meant i couldnt qo there. yea my two oldest brothers are just puerto rican and black and ja , calv, and ray are puerto rican, white, and black. lol i just felt like yall should know cuz i dont want people askinq me if i'm puerto rican cuz im not and a lot of people be askinq that. im the only fulllllly black child for my mom and dad cuz my lil sister and brother both have cuban and jamacian in them. my sister is sooo pretty and my brother is a lil cutieee lol. i want a mix baby cuz majority of the time mix qirls be pretty and mix boys be lookinq qood as hell. BUT im livinq proof black folks is sexy too =] lol. i aint dark i qotta caramel complextion. lmao @ me talkiqn about looks, races, and complextions. this entry is crazy. ain't nobody on and im just bored. im talkinq about off the wall shit. i qot 97 entries in here. that's a lot. i quess ima qo back and read alll them cuz like i said i'm bored. oooor i can qo mess with psp 9 and qet brushes and shit and do me a header. hmmm i dunno. i'll come back later and tell yall what i did. lol ONE

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 00:55:45 GMT

today one year aqo me and raymond qot toqether. september 10, 2003. riqht before 9/11. aint that crazy, it's been exactly 3 years since the attack. we was talkinq about that in school. man the world just fucked up when ~~bush~~ came into office. did we have any problems when clinton was in office? man he was the closest we was qettinq to a black president. lol this one of them kind of deep entries today. i just hope nothinq like that happens aqain. i mean everybody know ~~bush~~ ass is qettinq re-elected. i'm just hopinq he dont but i know he is. i ain't really into politics and shit soo i'ma just qet off the topic. oh yea yall needa have a moment of silence for the fallen fire fiqhters, police officers, and the victims.

today was pretty quiet. i was thinkinq about ray the whole day. i miss him =/ he needa pop up. mann i miss lunden and troy too. i havent talked to them fools since i started school. man this dont even feel like a friday. well i miqht not be cominq on for a while soo i needa qo ahead and tell them 2 people that. -smh- just two people. yea soo if whoever reads my journal wanna take me off their list lemme know cuz i will take ya off.

ooooh qood thinq my friendz nique and carlos are qettinq married. that is soo cute. lemme qive yall the backqround on them. -clears throat- i met them when i was 13 years old on msn. nique was 4 years older than me and carlos was 5 years older than me. they had been qoinq out for 2 years when i met em. soo then they met in real life like either 2-3 years aqo. they qotta lil apartment down here in cleveland [that's where carlos stay] soo they had a baby and she's soo adorable. she's seven months and now they're qettinq married. i met them both before but that was on accident. i was down there in cleveland at the mall and nique saw me and was like "TAUTEYANA !! OH MY GAH !! TAUTE !!" lol, soo yea we had chilled and talked and they told me all of that. they never broke up. 6 years. damn i want a relationship like that; just qo with out breakinq up that lonq. thats real love riqht there. i hope they marriaqe work out and i betta qet an invitation !! lol update yall on that ..

welll that's all i really have to say. ONE

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 22:45:41 GMT

lol i be forgettin about this. but anyways how my people been? well i quess yall qood or whatever. i need my damn psp back foreal shit. i be bored most of the time. well when i ain't talkinq to sheed. he's the only person i talk to since ray hardly be on and everybody else don't talk to me. lol funny shit thouqh cuz i qot folk on my list i aint even talkinq to. muhfuckas don't pop up on my screen no more. thats all qood thouqh cuz i only talk to brandon when he on and like i said sheed. i be lookinq at the people i claimed was my people and its like why the hell did i? some folks is qettin on my nerves and i'ma have to let they asses know. i told yall im about to be makinq damn enemies. welll ummz ima chanqe my color on my journal since thats all i can do. that qreen shit is UGLY. lol ydf did i pick that color? well school was straiqht today. i was down in the qym[i wasnt pose to be there] but they was playinq basketball. so i went down there to play with em and james threw the ball at me and my damn index finger went back. i tried to kill that bitch lol. but i clowned in study hall. me and niyah was "rappin" ahhhhhhhh shit was funny. lol we was just talkinq bout everybody who think they can rap. man we made damn fools outta ourselves. i had fun thouqh. then i came home qot on here and talked to sheed my lovinq buddy =] lol. ahhh i think he has problems but i still love him. yeaaaa i said still love him. what ya thouqht i didn't? lol lemme stop for i have muhfuckas goin back sending they text all over damn aol, aim, msn, and yahoo. wellllll i'ma get up out this shit. i'll be in this another time. ONE

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 00:07:06 GMT

im soooooooo pissed riqht now. i had to do system recovery on my computer because SOMEONE was lookinq at that porn shit on my computer and i had FIVE, not ONE, FIVE damn viruses on my computer. PSP 7 and 8 is qone, iMesh is qone, shock.p3 is qone, my brushes for PSP is qone, and PS is qone. yall dont know how damn mad i was when they told me they couldnt save any of my proqrams that was on my computer to a disk because i had too many viruses and they couldn't let the proqrams save. i was just too damn mad. when i qet all my shit back aint nobody touchinq my computer and i aint makinq shit for anybody. fuck that ima be makinq me some damn enemies pretty soon. ima hit ray up when i qet done writinq in here. school uqh i fuckinq hate it. well i dont like some of my teachers but my classes be hype as fuck. lol mannnnn i stay clowninq. like on thursday when my boy james came in the classes in a pink tee i just broke out sinqinq the sonq and niqqa was like "man fuck u shit i look sexy ass hell." i was like "shiiiiiiit u look qay ass hell." i had my teacher dyinnnnq. my study hall teacher coo ass hell thouqh. but basically i be clowininq and qettin my work done and all of that. yeaaa but ima hit ray up before he leave or put up his away. i'll qet in this later and i will do my colors later too. aiqht ONE

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 14:25:47 GMT

HIII !! lol been a while been a while. how yall been doinq? man school back up and i've been mad tired and everythinq. i'm tryinq to qet a job and what not soo you know i can have some shit to do. i be seeinq my lil sister and brother all the time up there. soo yea aint none to really update about. i qotta chanqe my layout i know that. soo ima just chanqe the colors and sit. i aint in the mood to make anythinq. soo yea i be back in this later. ONE

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 07:36:51 GMT

whats qood lj. none my way chillin like usual. soo yea another day when no one was on. i talked to brandon and lunden. that was basically it. i was sleep for almost the whole day soo i aint do shit. today was basically fucked up. i aint talked to ray or nobody i usually talk to. oooh i talked to mara yesterday morninq. i dont know sometimes i dont even wanna talk to folks when i hop on here. well school is startinq up and me and my sister sharleaha qoinq school clothes shoppin. im the last person who should even be qoinq shoppin but all i qot is summer clothes soo i needa qo. ima just qet clothes cuz i qot shoes up the asz and they aint messed up or none. this year for the footwear ima just be rockin my chucks, forces, jordans, and tims. then ima just wear ya know jeans and whatnot. i miqht cut down on the skirts. wellllll i never really wore skirts to school cuz fems up here stay on bullshit. well whateva ima qo shoppin tomorrow and probably just chill. well qet in this at a later date. ONE

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 07:53:48 GMT

whats qood lj? im chillin like usual. aint none qo down today. umm i aint talk to ray but i talked to brandon, lunden, malia, and somewhat manda. well i just looked at somethinq for her. i qot done talkinq to troy around 3 somethinq. me and him was on mic. well i was but he said he was qonna but one tomorrow. he be trippin me out. lunden said he was qonna be on later but i doubt that. he's my late niqht chat partner. lol we be dyinnnnnnn. we stay talkinq about uqly celebrities. lol wooo qot me thinkinq about ciara and lloyd. but thats all i been basically doinq. im wiiiide awake soo ima just hit some chats up or whatever. nahh i miqht do my header and shit. thats if i fiqure out what i wanna do. but whateva ima qet in this later. ONE

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 06:21:58 GMT

mannn its sooo fuckinq hot over here riqht now. its like damn near 90 deqrees in this bitch. im sittin here in some boxers and a sport bra and im still hot. -smh- well i havent wrote in this in a while. i've been talkinq to some other people lately. soo i've met these boys namedddd ... well ima just name the ones i talk to a lot lunden[dat niqqa is a fool] , troy [haha not qon start with him] and this boy named lewis[really aint qon say none bout him]. they all coo but lunden is more fun to talk to. we was talkinq about ciara last niqht/earlier this morninq. lol but yea i talked to raymond like some days aqo. i forqot when but that niqqa was clownin like hell. lol they in school now and he was tellin me about everythinq that was qoinq down. we start on the 31st. i cant wait cuz now i wanna qo back. first i didnt but now i do. i was sleep for like 17 damn hours today. lol man o man. oh yea i spoke to andres this morninq. been a while but it was madd short thouqh. sooo yeaaa time for a new layout people. any thouqhts? drop em for me. thats it qet back in this later. ONE

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 05:37:51 GMT

hey ljers. mann today was bLeh. i aint do shit but kicked it with Kam and washed my hair. i seen the Crime Mob video. that sonq is tiqht and i seen the white tees video. Dem Franchize Boyz made that not Crime Mob. well anyways they videos is straiqht. sooo what to talk about? now everybody wanna blow my IMz up and try and qet mad cuz i put my away up. well except sheed but i dont qiva fuck. -shruqz- aint sweatinq it because niqqas aint wanna talk to me when it was down so fuck it ya feel? nah sayinq i aint about to be all nice to muhfuqqas who dont talk to me. i mean after all ima damn "throwback". lmao@that shit. soo damn funny. but i was shocked when i saw that because....nvm. i saw that i was like "damn don't i feel speciaL" shiiiiit -brushes my keyboard off- i can be a "throwback". that shit aint phazinq me. lol ima put that as my away messaqe. lol hold up lemme chanqe it. okaii i qot it chanqed. i aint even IM the people who had IMed me. lolllll this is what Shay said "taute ima beat cha asz qon put yo away up then take it off and then put it back up and who df called u a throwback???" lol that qirL is wild. mannnn after seeinq that shit made me qet qeeked. im like "awww hell nah. taute'z a damn throwback." and i just busted out lauqhinq because just thinkinq back on the moments is hilarious. woooooo lemme stop typinq before i start recitinq shit and qet people made at me. ONE

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 05:04:04 GMT

i talked to my baby today. ahhhh i was happy. biq asz smaile =]. hmmm i havent talked to sheed in a while. well our last couple conversations wasnt too qood at all. i dont know. man me and him are just on two different levels i think because one minute we'll be all qood ya know, lauqhinq and playinq around then the next its like the niqqa iqqin me or i wanna kill him. soo i dont know what the deal is with us. maybe he qot be blocked -shruqz- dont really know. i've been kind of lonely on here because everyones qettin back in school now. i qot qo back the 31st. i talked to maLiia's slow asz and D. man that boy has so many problems i tell ya. i talked to brandon and qeo on friday. soo basically i've been talkinq to raymond, ra'sheed, maLiia, brandon, and qeovannii. then when they arent on im talkinq to no one. hmmz i quess i need to make new friendz =/. OOOH me and kam</b> been chillin lately. okay lemme fill yall in on kam. aiqht me and cameron dated one time. well more than one but not qonna qet deep into that. aiqht he cheated on me soo we we're beefin for a while but he apoloqized because it was his fault =p. lol nahhhh so we've been chillin lately and thats really it. i think he think im still feelinq him but im not. well im at my momz crib riqht now but im qoinq back to my dadz tomorrow. well more like today. i thouqht i would update this and whatnot since i have been absent from it. soo yea yall qet at me and drop me some comments. ima qo comment on my lovely friend's journals. aiqht bye bye ONE

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 04:42:55 GMT

hey ljers. well i aint doinq nothinq riqht about now. im just listeninq to all these slow sonqs and whatnot. man im feelinq . . . i dont even know. its like im kind of hurt and mad but then i question myself and say "why am i feelinq this way?" and i have no answer. hmm i dont know. i was feelinq this way last niqht when i had siqned off. but i seriously dont know why im feelinq this way. i talkled to sheed today. he was the only person. oh and i talked to qeo. that was is it. i really dont be talkinq to a lot of people anymore. malia hardly comes on anymore. i think they started school already im not sure. tina be talkinq about that same ol shit everyday. "carnell did this carnell did that." "i qot another famous kidd number." that shit qets old and its startinq to qet on my nerves. soo yea i chilled basically the whole day. my knee been killinq me but ima be straiqht. havent talked to ray in a while. i wonder whats up with him. ehhhh i havent spoke to kevin either. ooooh yea yesterday i talked to devin my lonq lost buddy. he had said his computer had broke. mmmhm lol nah. vinny came over here today and we was clowninq. lol this niqqa was like "taute u know what i noticed about you?" and i was like "what?" he was like "u know u qot yo dad facial features with yo momz body?" lol i was lyk NO SHIT dumasz. -smh- that niqqa is so slow. i sure as hell dont look like my mama so who the hell ima look like then? nobody but my dad. i had to smack his asz on that one. soo yea we was just talkinq about nothinq then my quhL shayreka called me and me and her was clowninq. we called bLunt lol and we was messinq with this niqqa for a qooooooood 2hrz. lmao !! niqqa was like "this aint nobody but shayreka's asz playin on my phone cuz it cant be taute cuz she cant never keep her shit on. but that's aiqht i love u quhL and tell taute ima fuck her asz up" lol i was dyinnnnnnn this niqqa qone be found dead im tellin u. lol nahhhh my beef with bLunt is over. its just ~~mimi~~ i dont like. but oh well. ima qo ahead and leave this. bye ONE

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 05:17:30 GMT

shit is fucked up. man o man. okaiiz how bout my day was qoin so damn qood and then i qets this phone call from one of my friends. she's all like "omq Taute your brother and his quhLfriend was in a accident. im like "wdf?" damn i cant even leave because my dad isnt even here and i have no keys to nothinq. i cant find jaquan or calvin. man its just fucked up basically. i know rayquan is qoin to jail. this niqqa had a fuckin qun in his backseat. muhfuqqa was runninq from the police and hit someone else. -smh- his quhL qon fuckin lie and say she aint know my brother had that shit. qet the fuck outta hea. they let ha uqLii skinny asz qo. its coo cuz if he qo to jail ima beat her asz point blank. qon fuckin lie like that. she fuckin lucky i aint qot no keys to no damn cars cuz if i did i would straiqht run to her crib and beat that asz. i dont play that shit. ehhh well lemme qet offa that. like i said i was havin a qood day. i talked to Sheed and he did my profile for me. i like it alot. well that was basically it. i was talkin to him all day. so thats all to really update. off to copy and paste in gj. bye.

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 08:00:36 GMT

welll i talked to ray yesterday. i was happy about that. that made my niqht better. today i wnet to a ribs burnoff and that shit was aiqht. im qoinq tomorrow thouqh because everyones qonna be there cuz its the last day. im tellin u it was fine niqqasz there and fine niqqasz here. soo many was tryna spit their no qame at me and i was just lauqhin in their faces. it was pitiful. but this one niqqa was tryna qet with me and he was tooooo damn fine. lol he was ehhhh a sorta liqht skinned niqqa. he was fine. i swear soo many niqqasz was sportin pink. i seen more pink on niqqasz than femz. i asked this one boy if cam'ron was his role modeL niqqa qon say "hell nah niqqa look qay when he sport his pink i look sexy. dont i look sexy?" i was like "ehhhh time for me to qooooo" lol shiid niqqa was lookinq EW in that shit. pink is played out. i dont even sport that shit. purple is meee all the way lol. i was suppose to be qoin to the parade but my asz aint tired so i aint qoin to bed which means i aint qettin up on time. well im qonna qo update my gj. well more like copy and paste this in gj and finish talkinq to Sheed. bye ONE

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 00:05:22 GMT

well i qot a gj. ima still be writinq in this because i qot alot of entries and stuff. i know i haven't been writinq in this but i just been busy and this has been last. i'm qonna comment on some journals since i'm in the "commentinq" mood lol. soo i'm qonna do that. soo yes friends im still alive and i haven't talked to ray in a while. i miss him soo much =[. im qonna try and take my mind off of that but i just can't. im qonna be back in this later on today. just wanted to update yall. bye ONE

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 07:28:55 GMT

UPDATE !! UPDATE !! UPDATE !! lol, well hello fellow ljers. how are yall? im doinq quite fine. i did mara's blurty today. i also made teena some shiid. im tired lol its 3:23 i bout damn neared fell alseep at my keyboard soo yea im out. bye ONE

I LOVE MY BABY RAYMOND <333 !!

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 15:34:44 GMT

i'M HOME !! lol, welllll just for a couple days thouqh. soo yea aint feelinq no betta than i was before but i'll try to qet throuqh. it's like. . . whateva i ratha not qet into that situation just yet. im somewhat tired but not all the way lol. i just wanted to update and ima be readinq up on everyones journals and droppin comments soo dont no one cut me and if you do -shruqs- thats aiqht i aint qonna stranqle myself with my mouse cord cuz you did. but thats all im out. i will be back in this. ONE

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 22:12:22 GMT

man -siqhz- im sooooo tired of travelinq. soo fuckin tired. soo yea me and my dad qot into. -smmfh- niqqa is straiqht qettin hurt. im qoin throuqh soo much shiid riqht now and there's no one i can talk to about it. no one is here for me. i only know one person who knows me but no communication. none whatsoever. -siqhz- im tryna be happy ya know but im not. damn man whateva. im out. hittin da road . . . aqain ONE